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Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

hngg :3

Here I am, laying, typing, with Wonderwall playing along. This song always leads my mind to you. We both love this song, aren’t we? You once told me that this song fits us, long way before we ‘re tied. I kinda miss those moments, hahah, I miss those no mention updates, I miss those goodnights, I miss those hellos, I miss those wondering where you had been today (thou I’m still doing it in present;p), I miss wondering what’s on your mind (this one either!), I miss those silly chats, I miss those random texts, I miss checking your profile as my replies page, I miss stalking you, I miss feeling blind, I miss staying up late just to catch up with you, I miss those giggles and laughter and else.

I, somehow, miss that time :B

outting ♥

Monday, December 20, 2010

Galaw selaw

I wonder why recent days I'm feeling like doing nothing's right :( yeah, everything turned out into mistakes and mess and argues and fights and tears. am I that bitch? am I that annoying? huhuhu
I dont know. pressure, perhaps. okay I still have defense for these bitch actions, yeah I'm that baldyhead. my bad.
I'm so sorry for being so selfish. I cudnt see the real, I refuse to see the fact, yet I want everything to go my way. I'm not a perfectionist, but I am a ambitious one. Once I want something, I'll do everything to make it happen. but somehow I really have to learn that things arent always going the way I want.
I am tired, so are they, so are you, so are her, so are everyone.
I'm happily take care of you, but I have to be realistic. I shouldnt expect anything in return :)
kalo mau manja-manja, sama diri sendiri aja Naraaaaaaaaaa :'''p

outting ♥

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Friday, December 10, 2010

kapan belenggu itu akan benar-benar terlepas?
aku mulai tidak tahan.

outting ♥

Friday, December 3, 2010

It growls, inside of my tummy. I hate this kind of feeling, I barely feel it so.. I really hate it.
I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
I hate the fact that something isnt right and I have no idea how is it going and I know its better for me not to ask.
I hate this. I hate this. I hate this.
I dont want this, I dont want to feel this way.
..but I do. I am feeling this and its one of those kind of feelings that no one could avoid.
Problems wouldnt last, but the future freaks me out. Sure, it is.

I know, there's nothing we can do about it. All we could do is just pray and believe.

I'm not hoping for any useful suggestion, its beyond our ages, this problem.
I just need to be heard. :(
I have to spill these sick feelings, I have to grumble, I have to lean on.
without any negotiation or confrontation
does it bother so much to hear me without any... rrrgh

forget it.

outting ♥

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

I am fine.
Freaked out. Insecure. Nervous. Emotional

outting ♥