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Tuesday, April 28, 2009

terlalu emosi saat ngepost kalo pake english ntar akan jadi sangat kasar :p

kemaren saya baca wall to wall beberapa junior luar sma 1 tentang sma 1. rata2 wall to wall anak 2o11 ke anak 2o12. mereka bilang :
'ga daftar sma 1 kan?'
'gamau jadi geek!'
'aduh geek it terlalu sopan deh kata2nya haha'
'kaya apa coba ntar kalo masuk sma 1?'
'kamu bisa jadi alim tanpa dosa dan gatau cowok itu apa'
jujur yaaaa
saya kesel banget dengernya ihhh mereka itu bicara kaya ga ada anak sma 1 yang punya facebook atau kasarnya ANAK SMA 1 GA ADA YANG EKSIS KAYA MEREKA trus ngatangatain sma 1 seenaknya. grmbl. sebenernya sih cuek ya sama mereka mau ngmg apa (apalagi yg anak 2o11 itu dulu daftar tldn tapi ga keterima)
sebelnya paradigma itu kadang kadang kebawa sampai keprofesionalan sesuatu hal. kayak saat saya izza dan maman pergi ke kickfest o8, (fyi saya ga pake jilbab) ada mas mas yg ngmg 'wah sma 1 maenannya distro sekarang' what the heck banget ga sih please ya emang sma 1 beli baju harus di karita? zz trus pas saya ada workshop film bodyshop ada yang ngomong ke saya 'sma 1? beda ya sama paradigmanya selama ini ' haha saya cuman nyengir garing :E hmm terus ada lagi. sewaktu saya jadi insurgent army-nya the sigit, ada org blg ke saya 'sma 1 tau the sigit juga?' itu penghinaan. dan waktu saya pake seragam sma 1 rok pendek ke amplas (pinjem punya sola, rok saya robek parah hbs lmb tonti) dan atasan pake kaos biasa ada yg ngmg gini sama temennya 'minggu2 ngopo ik nganggo seragam?'
dan temannya menjawab 'mbuh seko rupa rupane ketoke cah bosa' WOH itu GA SOPAN YAA ! tapi saya bingung itu penghinaan apa pemujian or stuffs -.-
hmm yang bisa saya simpulkan adalah : yeah sma 1 mempunyai paradigma sekolah serius dan religius. saya fine fine aja (daripada punya paradigma sekolah ga bener yg cowo brengs*k yg cewe per*k? wuahaha) TAPI ITU BUKAN ALASAN UNTUK MENGUNDERESTIMATEKAN SMA 1 YA WAHAI KHALAYAK ! saya kemaren berantem sama temen saya alumni muh* yang ngata ngatain sma 1 tu hal non akademisnya lemah wo bosan hidup rupanya dia. Dont Judge A Book By Its Cover! Dont Judge A Girl From Her Jilbab! (curcol hahaha)
trus saya ketawa pas ada yg ngmg 'di sma 1 ndak ntar gapunya dosa' yo malah apik to? hanya orang idiot yang mau punya dosa mameeeen hahahahahahahahahah kesian udah cantik sexy kaya eksis pacarnya ganteng tapi sayang masuk neraka :p bukannya saya sok suci tapi ya saya bersyukur masuk sma 1. ada yang bisa membayangkan kalau saya masuk sekolah ehemehem? :p aih back to topic. hmm apa yang harus kita lakukan tentang paradigma ini? -.-
ohlala apakah kita harus diam saja namun kita bungkam mereka dengan prestasi prestasi kita?
tapi susah juga. apalagi soal sponsorship and stuffs. paradigmanya itu loh bikin mereka juga jadi males sama kita..
xo, nara :)

10 things

yesterday i read raditya dika's post about patronus charm. he write few things of his happy moments for, you know, if you want to make a patronus, beside you have to say the charm, you also have to remember all your happiest moments in your life. now i will try to write the happiest moment in my life
1. when i was winning english story telling championship all DIY at 4th grade of elementary school. it was my 1st personal championship and when my name were mentioned, i hugged my mom and i cried!
2. when i get 2nd rank on all 5th grade and 6th grade on elementary x)my mom and my dad was so happy ;)
3. when my father comes to jogja and we just sit somewhere with coffee and chit chat like a normal father-daughter would do :)
4. when i've got into 5jhs jogjakarta and my name was on the list of 'calon siswa akselerasi' my mom kissed me and hugged me in front of the table :D hahahahaha i miss that moment
5. when i'm hanging around with my mates just go somewhere to eat, to chat, and to talk from heart to heart. to scream our lungs out. to laugh until we cry.
6. when someone tell me that he loves me :)
7. when me and my letskilldiaz win the 1st thropy of movie competition :D oh my God that was the most unforgettable moment but.. -________________________-
8. when me and my marching squad win the 2nd thropy of PPI kota :D rain rain rain ;)
9. when i win the 1st thropy of english debate :D
10. when i see the audience of my theatre show stand up and give their applause and ovation then talk to me
'congratulation, director. you've done an amazing show. it was awesome.'
how about you? ;)
xo, nara :)

Friday, April 17, 2009

Sorry seems to be the hardest word

What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you're not there?

What I got to do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Always seems to me
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

What I do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad sad situation
And it's gotten more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Always seems to me
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

What do I got to do?
What do I got to do?
When sorry seems to be the hardest word,..

i love this song :) you know like when you caught in a problem. it will getting more and more absurd if you dont want to talk it over. haha i've been that way before (now, exactly) but it was over. i'm a kind of people who loved to talk what i feels inside WHEN someone ask for me. it will be better if the opposite madness who talk to me. i loved to set things straight as soon as possible and i'm not the type of girl who talk here-there-everywhere about her problems and ask people to 'vote' her ew it will set things moreeeeeeeeeeeeeee absurd! but there was a people who do that. in what i see, there are some reasons why people do that. because they were not believe in herself and if they were wrong so they talked shit to people to dropped their actually-innocence-enemy. wuhu die you bitch! :p

xo, nara :)

Stuck in The Moment That Was Not Mean to Last

look outside, it's cloudy now
half-way to raindrops, shall we use this raincoat?
or just wait until the rain finally drops?
i hear the voices of thunder, as the soundtrack of the storm
shall we take this blanket?
or just wait until we get cold?
i've learned to play on the safe side
but you ask me for another taste
some other half maybe fully rejected
but for you, i think it twice,
third, if it a must
aint no other way, aint no other things to do
thou i know that it was just a game
and nothings serious with this
like a drama or a movie, but why should i care?
it could defined as stuck in a moment that wasnt mean to last.

xo, nara :)

For one of my best.

When it all happens to an end, why God make this so hard?
I’ve said that this shit's not worthed to ruined our time
Should I scream it just to make it clear?
Well I’ll wait until you listen every word I have to say
How long could it be?
But if from deep down you have no interest to set things straight, why should I?
I do love you and I do care about you
For you I would bleed myself dry
But are we growing up or just growing down?
I shall to trust that it's only the matter of time
But my hope begins to fade
I prefer to be quiet one than have to make you cry
Can you get this? I love you sure but somehow I can’t stand on your act
But I don’t want to see you hurt, too.
Please please forgive me
But I was hurt too
You can say I’m dying now

xo, nara :)

Friday :O

I type this on Friday math class feat mr. Narlan. GOSH i hate Friday schedule! It was 6 hours lessons and three subjects. Each subject has 2 hours and three of them doesn’t make any sense. First, Religion with Mr. Syahrullah. I hate this one. I remembered one day that i sat on the corner of the class looking outside the window and he just argued at me saying
“what do you looking for outside?”
Happiness.
“not a thing sir ehehe”
“You are supposed to look at me and hear what i say! Now can you repeat what i have told you?”
What? You just talk to yourself.
“eeeer something about forgiveness?”
And then he kept talking shit yeaaaah and then he argued with nisqul who sat next to me. Believe it or not he talked less more like this
“do you can pray?”
OMFG if nisqul doesn’t wear a jilbab doesn’t mean that she can’t pray you moron! Finally he told us to sit at the front of the class. -____________________________________-
The second one is this Mr. Narlan’s math class. He’s not that cruel at this 2nd years and as long as he doesn’t bother me i think we were good enough ;p
The third one is Mt. Heri’s physic class. Ewww he used to teach at the last hours but i just don’t like this guy. I remembered one day when one of his sheet was gone and he kept mad at class. Few minutes along Izza told him that the sheet was in Izza’s bag. It was .. ketlingsut ;p and guess what? He mad at izza and called him a thief and an liar person. Izza should ask for Headmaster sign if we all want to go home. What a jerk =3=
Yeah i really hate Friday. I want to go home noooooooooooooooooow please let me go hooooooooooooomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :O ahahahahaha ew i’ve got stomachace ;(

xo, nara :)

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Dreams

Last afternoon i fell asleep at my car when i was on the way to went back home. I had some dream. I guess this one have to be written here.
So i was sat in front of the dkz (5 JHS) waited for my mom. It was a quiet afternoon, i don’t know why i just alone (in fact, i rather die than have to be alone somewhere ;p) and suddenly he came and sit beside me. It was my old friend, alm. Brilianto Ahmad Fauzan or what we used to call uzan. He passed away when i was on my nine grade, just a couple of days before final exam. In my dreams he sat next to me and looked at me with his silly face and then we had some chat.
“ what with you nduk? “
“ nothing, just got some pain. Why? ”
“ haha nothing. Your face told me everything that you hide from me. Come on you are my friend since we were in elementary school. I’ve seen all your mood and how you face it. That makes me know at this time that you are dealing with some problems now. ”
“ haha i miss you then because i don’t get some boy friend that just like you. You know me from deep down inside and you also know how to help me dealing my problems with my love life hahahaha i miss you so mad ! ”
“ well i’m happy now, and i hope you all happy too, downthere. ”
And then i woke up. I was sweating thou the AC was on. I was speechless considered that he was already gone. Does he really comes after me or it was only absolute imagination? Maybe uzan can answer it by himself ;p hahahah JUST KIDDING! Masya Allah Astaghfirulloh ;p;p
I’m not crying, at all. I was so happy thou it sounds creepy.
I miss Uzan :(

xo, nara :)