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Thursday, December 31, 2009

Review 2nd part : 4 damned months :p

September
Fucked up :p hahah mulai addict sm twitter which caught me into trouble. And prepare for my cambridge examination.

October
Yg ini lbh fucked up lagi haaaaahahaha -- having my cambridge exam and got busy with Tonti and.....caught myself into a trouble. complicated.

November
Hey I'm enjoying every time on November :} wish I could go back. yeah wish I :''')

December
Berat. Bulan Desember ini berat banget rasanya :''''C I should really let someone go. And its Goddamned hard, for God sake :( I'm twisted cuz one side of me is telling me that I need to move on. on the other side, I wanna break down and cry. errrgh sumpah ini bulan mellow abis. ngehek lah. bulan penuh pisuhan pokoknya. :(
Things offered me two steps. Let go of him, and try to accept the other him. I just...cant. Its better for me to be alone, perhaps. yeah single is the best therapy, isnt it?


So Goodbye 2oo9, thanks for everything. See you. :-h

yours, nara xxoo :)

2009 Review :D January till August !

January
Taun baruan di rumah nisq hahaha jaman2nya maman msh deket sm nisq dan aku sendiri....oh shit-- sama anak muha huehehe tapi kita ada konflik pas PANGANDARAN. whoaaaa this one was unforgetable :DDD satu kamar sama erita thyta nisq dan disitu, malem kedua, he texted me and talked smthg about shit. dan mulai saat itu aku ngejauh. maaf, maaf... :,,)
Pangandaran were abso-fucking-lutely AWESOME ! we went snorkeling, diving, bike-ing, ate seafood, and else. TMTM. Gosh wish I cud go there again... :)
Januari means 2nd period of my 2nd year at Teladan. And hell-yeah I've got 2 job for theatre this month. LCC's and Exacta's. Hey I miss NP :'''')

February
I worked damn hard this month as a ketua umum pagelaran and bagian acara CNT. Geez buat yg CNT, seru. soalnya terjadi konflik antara 2oo9 dan 2o1o yang berujung unek-unek kita keluar semua besok paginya :b yaa paginya kita mutusin bahwa akan ada PTT untuk ngilangin ganjil genap yang ada di Teladan. jujur, 2o1o ga pernah tuh nggembor2in ke-genap-an kita (walau kita tahu genap itu keren hahaha ups) karena bagi kita, its not a big deal, we were Goddamned Teladan and we would better stick together. ganjil genap itu kan cuma sebutan, gausah dibikin ampe ada aliansi2 segala gt kan? alhamdulillah ganjil terakhir 2oo9. kita, 2o1o, worked hard with 2o11 to be one. oyeahh o-n-e. mungkin sekarang anak2 2o12 juga gatau ada ganjil genap gitu.. yeah its way much better :)
oiya, di bulan ini aku deket sm cowok muha (lagi, Gosh -,-) tp beda sm yg January hehe :-p

March
Midsemku kacau hahaha kebanyakan kerja sih ya ampun -______- maen sh lbh tepatnya huehehe :B di bulan ini tuu masa-masanya DBL :DD masa-masanya TYT hihi aku inget banget ada jadwal midsem yg fisika-kimia (iya, aku tau ini emg tai bgt -,-) tapi malem sebelumnya aku malah ntn DBL :P mau liat TYT soalnya mwikikikik di bulan ini aku dapet mandat dari GVT buat jadi Basing sama TT buat jadi ticketbox. woot -____+

April
YANG AKU INGET BANGET DI BULAN INI ADALAH KONFLIK ITU ;p KARENA PARA PELAKUNYA PADA AKTIF INTERNET JD GAUSAH DITULIS DEHYA -____- malah jd emosi sendiri hahahah biarin ah. salahnya muka dua -__-
disini aku msh deket sama yg anak muha itu tapi aku juga deket sm anak bosa ;p haha tp yg sm anak bosa cm singkat padat gajelas kok wkwk

June
PTB :)
Disini, lovelife saya agak mawud hahah saya memutuskan untuk menyudahi suatu hubungan. ini notes saya pas jaman-jaman itu

''haruskah saya minta maaf sama anda?
saya melihat kalimat anda dan saya tertegun. saya sadar bahwa anda sudah melepas saya. akhirnya saya terlepas dari anda.. ya memang saya senang, karena berarti saya bebas. bebas atas rasa jenuh atas semuanya. yap betul rasa jenuh, tidak ada yang salah dari anda, tidak ada yang salah dari hubungan kita, yang salah hanyalah rasa jenuh dari saya. maaf saya mungkin bosenan, milihan, dan jahat. sekali lagi maafkan saya. tapi saya tidak ada niat untuk menyakiti anda. kalau saya ingin menyakiti anda, saya bisa saja dengan gampangnya berpura pura tertarik dengan anda, mempertahankan anda untuk beberapa kebutuhan saya tanpa timbal balik dari saya. saya bisa saja melakukan itu karena saya tau perasaan anda ke saya. tapi saya memilih membiarkan anda mendapatkan orang lain yang berjutajuta kali lebih baik dari saya. anda orang baik, saya yakin anda bisa. sebenarnya saya kagum atas sikap tahan banting anda, wuh anda mengingatkan saya pada h*st tapi ya bahkan untuk mencoba saja saya sudah merasa jenuh -.- saya memang egois, egois sekali. tapi ya beginilah saya..
kalau anda tanya, apa sih yang saya cari selama ini?
jujur,
saya juga ngga tahu.
saya memang ngga tahu apa yang saya cari.
hati saya yang tahu apa yang saya cari, dan itu bukan anda.
dan kalau saya tidak ingin menjalin hubungan yang lebih serius dengan anda, haruskah saya minta maaf sama anda?
mungkin lebih tepatnya terima kasih. terima kasih atas semua yang anda berikan sama saya. errrr sepertinya memang saya harusnya minta maaf sama anda. benar? ya maaf ya.
ayo anda harus bisa seperti saya. yang sudah biarlah sudah.''

krkrkr --
lalu saya berkenalan dgn anak pads hehe :p dan selama sebulanan ini kita coba keep in touch tapi yaaa gmana, penyakit lama saya kumat -- saya nggasuka sama orang yang nuntut waktu ini itu dari saya, to be honest, it bothers. looks like I'm lack of activites so I should always be with you all the time. ngok wegah wae sorry -o-
Juni juga saya tau bahwa naskah saya lolos seleksi tahap pertama TAC :))) saya pun menghadiri workshop di kaliurang dan woow saya ketemu Nia Dinata :D

July
Hello RAN, Hello UNY, Hello SummerSwing :))) disini juga udah mulai jadi kelas 3 haha :B udah mulai giat latian buat GVT, dan lain lain. bulan ini, saya lagi capek-capeknya, males-malesnya, ngurusin lovelife ato yaa cowok. Gosh males rasanya --

August
GVT's done dengan sedikit kekecewaan. ni ada notes pas itu

''it was hard you know, try to front lyk 'we're fine, i'm okay' && in fact we're not.. but you guys make it easier for me :) zan, val, gus, we're hving a great time, right? :D
i dont know how many times i've told you but yeah, let me declare it once more, i was so happy to be a part of you guys :) (thou three of you were not-100%-guy i still called you 'guys' lol :p)
well, we're not get in class but.. hey you still have next year GVT's, right? i'm sure all of you will be basing again. naufal will be koor basing , eh? :D hahah :3 but in that time, i'm at jakarta already, preparing my college time at UI (amieeen) so, just be cool. :)''

yours, nara xxoo :)

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

+_____-

aku tau aku salah dan aku harus membayar semuanya. fine, I will pay the charge. but somehow I just wanna say that I really really really hate this part and I dont even find the reason why. you hurt me, you're not there when I need you, you turn my life upside down, you dont even stick with me. okay all my friends say 'let go of him, what could you expect from a guy lyk that?' I know it sounds lame but hell all those shits werent enough for me to let go of you.
so could you please hurt me more so I could hate you?
could you please tell me that you're in love with another chick so I could hate you?
could you please tell me that you hate me so I could hate you?
blah aku tau aku terdengar sangat teramat emo tapi yaaa gapapa deh hahah I think I deserve myself a lil time off for being a strong girl ;p but back to the start, I'm not regretting any. sure I'm not. hubungan kita seru, efeknya juga seru, what a great-yet-heart-breaking months. hmm 4? or 3? no need to count. :)
and when I type this, it rains. we both love rains, eh? haha I thought that I would put it all behind but funny how it seems there's always something right there to remind me. like the weather, a silly joke, a song, or something inbetween. we had too much that time cudnt erase, eh? :...)
Gosh.
I cant believe I've lost you.
I cant believe that it makes me down just to watch you go.
it ends, right? or should I say, it ended?
yeah, I think I've already lost you.
I think you're already gone. you're leaving.
I know its wrong for me to count on you. Its a problem I'm dealing now. bless me, God. --
I always wonder how things gonna be when you're gone. I mean, how could I be? how could you be? how could we be? and now it happens but I'm still wondering what should I do.
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you?
AARGGGH Goddamned you, what have you done to me, eh? F. -__+

yours, nara xxoo :)

Monday, December 21, 2009

voteee

Teman teman yang saya cintai dan saya banggakan, dengan segala kerendahan hati, kami memohon bantuan teman teman untuk ngeVOTE film JANGAN SEBUT ITU CINTA sebuah film dokumenter tentang Kekerasan Dalam Pacaran. Film tersebut adalah karya anak anak SMA 1 Yogyakarta ( Nara Thyta Efel ) yang mana sedang mengikuti lomba film dokumenter THINK ACT CAHNGE tingkat nasional. Dukung film Kami, agar mendapatkan Award pada Awarding Night tanggal 7-8 Januari nanti di Blitz Megaplex, Grand Indonesia.

Cara Votenya
1. Buka websitenya http://www.thebodyshop-film.com/polling/vote02.html

2. Cari film berjudul "JANGAN SEBUT ITU CINTA!!!. Klik pada bunderan ( he?) di kiri foto, lalu dikomen juga ya jangan lupa




3. Di bawah sendiri, ada form email dan nama, isikan disitu, dan sebelum KIRIM, pastikan bunderan di kiri foto ( JANGAN SEBUT ITU CINTA!! ) sudah diklik



Terimakasih banyak teman, semoga Tuhan membalas kebaikan teman teman :))
xo, nara :)

Sunday, November 1, 2009

two is better than one :]

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something

'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one

But There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste

You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay

And finally now, believing

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one.



xo, nara :)

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

mad about this song -0-

Be still my heart
Lately its mind is on it's own
It would go far and wide
Just to be near you

Even the stars
Shine a bit bright i've noticed
When you're close to me

Still it remains a mystery

Anyone who seen us
Knows what's going on between us
It doesn't take a genius
To read between the lines
And it's not just wishful thinking
Or only me who's dreaming
I know what these are symptoms of
We could be in love

I ask myself why
I sleep like a baby through the night
Maybe it helps to know
You'll be there tomorrow

Don't open my eyes ohhh
I'll wake from the spell i'm under
Makes me wonder how tell me how
I could live without you now

And what about the laughter
The happy ever after
Like voices of sweet angels
Calling out our names
And it's not just wishful thinking
Or only me who's dreaming
I know what these are symptoms of
We could be in love

All my life
I have dreamed of this
But i could not see your face
Don't ask why to such distant stars
Can fall right into place

we could be in love - lea salonga

xo, nara :)

zuper quickie updatessss

school : exhausting ;p why? because these two months my class will have our cambridge examination so our lessons fulfilled by cambridge thingie. i'm just taking two materials which is english A Level Literature and AS Level English Language. it will be held at oct27, and 3-10-13-18-19nov. so now i could give ma full concern to this documentary film festival thingie :3

life : this month kills me slowly but suree! got lotta problems at the beginning but everything seems well now, or at least i'm taking it well :p I CANT WAIT TILL THEY MENTION WHO ARE THE FINALIST GEEE PRAY FOR ME guys :3

love : blah -,-


xo, nara :)

Monday, October 19, 2009

blaaaah gajelas z

aku memiliki hak penuh untuk berfikir secara bebas dan merdeka tanpa dihujat dan disalahkan oleh siapapun, terutama yang selalu merasa benar. belajarlah mengerti bahwa hidup tak hanya berkisar pada hitam dan putih, benar dan salah. apa yang berbeda dari pandanganmu belum tentu sebuah kesalahan, begitu pula sebaliknya.
melihat kebaikan seperti memandang langsung ke arah matahari. dapat dihindari, namun tak dapat dipungkiri.
namun melihat kesalahan seperti mencampurkan warna hitam ke warna lain. secerah apapun warnanya tetap akan terlihat hitam.
euforia ini menggelitik namun pahit. ingin berteriak 'heeey hentikan mimpi ini, aku ingin bangun dan menyadari bahwa semuanya baikbaik saja' namun mengapa mataku terbuka? ayolah. pastikan bahwa ini tak nyata.
pernah merasakan bagaimana rasanya memiliki sudut pandang yang terus membuatmu dihakimi tanpa ada kesempatan untuk membela diri? itu yang aku rasakan sekarang. mereka mendengarku seolah aku ini seorang hitam diantara putih.

apa mungkin aku memang seperti itu?
xo, nara :)

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Last Day ?

well i cudnt believe i've thru this 2weeks so fast. like in a blink of an eye, voila! tomorrow school starts again again and again. fiuh.
this holiday all i did was just shooting, playing, and tweeting (which causes a problem but whatsoever blah) and i totally forgot about holiday task. woops i mean, TASKS. those shits were so not important to get done (-......-)
i've planned to spend this last day of freedom wif thyta and maman and else, we'll be messing around in Jogja so watchout >:B
aaaand what i missed from these days which i cudnt get this year was : go to Jakarta. hell i miss Jakarta so muchhhh! oma called me and asked 'ga ke Jakarta din? ga kangen sama oma?' KANGEN KANGEN ohmygawd i MISS you a bunch, oma :(

and its been a while sinced i met my dad but it feels like a decade. hmmm about 6months? 8months? around that number. i miss my dad but sinced i used to live separated with him from i was a lil girl, i could stand on it. i could..... fake it perfectly. gee -.-


xo, nara :)

Sunday, September 20, 2009

i love our times baby but i am bored. do me your best, or i'll leave you.

i need a time, i need a break. time could show us whenever you miss me or i miss you or unlucky us, we dont miss each other. hell i dont know what will it takes, our relationship i mean. if you ask about love, yes i love you, a bit. but how we move from A to B? it cant be up to me. yes lykke li it cant be up to girls :)

xo, nara :)

happy holy day

may God forgive our sins
and those who have sinned againts us :)

xo, nara :)

Monday, September 14, 2009

just so you know

this feeling's taking control of me
and i cant help it
i wont sit around, i cant let him win now :p
just so you know
i've tried my best to let go of you,
but i dont want to
i just gotta say it all before i go
just. so. you. know.

xo, nara :)

Sunday, September 13, 2009

he's yours, dont get bad on me, i'm outting from you both ;)

i've talked
i've told them whats in my mind, and in my heart, thou there's something that i should kept it until i dont know when ): maybe God makes this thing easier with explained everything in just one day. and so here i am, laying with my own heartache try to front our change-awkward-relation like 'i'mma kewl dude, youve got nothing to do wif meh' whether in fact, you do. you really do. or like we used to say 'you really got me.' and yeah, you do. you just fucking do.
i'm not wanting you to be mine, actually i dont know what i want. yeah i just want this to last but unfortunately thats too impossible to be true. you have to choose, girl, dont be sucha selfishtic people.
and............... well i have to admit that she loves you so and i dont have the right to bother you. he's yours, dont get bad on me, i'm outting from you both ;)

xo, nara :)

Saturday, September 12, 2009

last day of schewl :3

pardon my late updating, lagi seneng senengnya nge-tweet nich :D click here to follow me on twitter :3
well, two weeks passed with smile, and tears. why? karena dua minggu ini gila. tugas sama ulangannya banyak bangeeeeeet eh :< i would never have the perfect time for studying. kalo laper, ngantuk. kalo kenyang, ngantuk. kapan belajarnya coba? -.-
dan lagi, tugas liburannya buanyak buanget. 200soal fisika harus rampung dalam 12 hari. rangkuman dua bab kimia juga. guru gue kaya sampah :#
cambridge examination is getting closer, and i dont even touch the material yet. shiz -.- bakal ujian yg language di oktober dan literature di november. wish me luck, bloggy ;)
tapi at all i'm so excited about the holiday. i'll working on my movie project wif thyta and efel then the coaching clinic will be held at 2october. with RIRI RIZA YOU KNOOW OH MY GOD I CANT WAIT :PPP i wanna try water blast at semarang, too. or at least, pandawa. i desperately wanna go to waterworld :S
next updates, what? loveydovey thingie? gee i cant describe it much. its blur, still. just wait until it clear aaaand i'll write about it here :D

xo, nara :)

Monday, September 7, 2009

you made me want you oh so bad, it hurts

addicted to : boys like girls - love drunk

maybe its better if i know, maybe its better if i dont.
maybe its better if i'm wrong, maybe its better if i'm gone.

xo, nara :)

biarkan :}

biarkan aku tersapu embun, menyatu dalam khidmat pagi
aku ingin merasakan hidup tanpa ritme
tak beralur dan tak bernada
biarkan aku terhempas ombak, menyatu dalam buih putih
aku ingin merasakan hidup tanpa gejolak
tenang mengalir dan tak menghanyutkan
biarkan aku terlindung awan, menyatu dalam gelap bayang
aku ingin merasakan hidup yang teduh
tanpa peluh dan panas membakar
biarkan aku larut dalam seluruh tetesan hujan
agar aku dapat hilang dengan penuh kesejukan

xo, nara :)

Sunday, September 6, 2009

what the hell have you been up to, nara? shit.

the sun rises, i could see it from my window. its pink, wif a lil bit orange. i couldnt sleep again after sahur. i'm sleepy, in fact, but i'm just.... thinking now.
i'm having a dream last night, weird actually. so, your ex came to me and yelled at me. she got mad, really mad and she said that i'mma backstabber, betrayer, boyfriend-stealer, and on. i suddenly woke up, and i cant sleep again.
actually, what the hell have i been up to? am i doing right, or what? i dont know. i mean, i let it happens the way it could be. i'm taking it easy. i'd never thought that it could hurts her, maybe. i dont know, she doesnt know yet. maybe she does. ah fuck, i dont even know about it, dont care.

hell, i care! -...............- i've seen that she loves you so much. the worse part is...... she's a friend of mine. perfect, uh?

i cant stand, no longer. and i've got no option left than.. leaving you, leaving this, leaving my reherseal time. but, no wonder if it gets hard, cuz... nothing works like you.

xo, nara :)

Saturday, September 5, 2009

lovefool


that day,
i almost fell in love with you.
that close, heartstealer. that close.


xo, nara :)

Friday, September 4, 2009

heart beats, but it goes wrong

what should i do, then?
baaaaaaaaaaaaaah. love is self-destruction you know.

xo, nara :)

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

jatuh cinta itu mengikat dan saya tidak suka diikat

that's what i feel recently. a lot of couple fight and break up. a lot of people become lover. i just dont get it, whats the point of being in a relationship?
i wanna have fun. i want my relationship to be fun, too! i dont want that melodramatic hyperbole time comes to me. i just dont want to think about it when there's a lot of important things to be thinked.
okay, i need some place to lay my head. it doesnt have to be lover, right? you could do it to your bestfriend or your parents (its just common suggestion :p) and blablabla.
have i been in a relationship before? of course. i have 3 ex-es and one of them still being my close mate until now. what i love from them was we're not texting much but we know we still had each other. but it was when i'm on my JHS. now?
all boys that close to me recently wants me to spare my time to them. okay i replied their msgs but you know,,,, i'm bored with all that stuffs. yeah, bored.
when i rarely replied their msgs, some of them got mad and yelled at me "are you just play on me nara? please be serious!" WHAT KIND OF SERIOUS, DUDE? i dont feel like have to reply such a msg like "lagi apa? udah makan? udah mandi?" borrrrrrrring.
guys
i want my boy to be fun. not all the time text me but i know he will always there for me. not always beside me but i know he'll faithful. not say "i love you" for a hundred times but i know he does :)

xo, nara :)

Friday, August 28, 2009

Endah n Rhesa - When You Love Someone ;)

I love you but it’s not so easy to make you here with me
I wanna touch and hold you forever
But you’re still in my dream
And I can’t stand to wait ’till nite is coming to my life
But I still have a time to break a silence
When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
When you hold your love
Don’t ever let it go
Or you will loose your chance
To make your dreams come true…

I used to hide and watch you from a distance and i knew you realized
I was looking for a time to get closer at least to say…
hello

And I can’t stand to wait your love is coming to my life

And I never thought that I’m so strong
I stuck on you and wait so long
but when love comes it can’t be wrong
Don’t ever give up just try and try to get what you want
Cause love will find the way



xo, nara :)

music saves my life

just download kewl songs from indonesian artis lyk Rendy Hendrawan, Endah and Rhesa, Sore. we should be brave for having such a talented youth lyk em ;) check it awt guys ;)
anyway, i'm on kawanku magazine this week, for think act change-ing thingiee

xo, nara :)

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

i've become so unkind these days because life bring the worst out of me

i could be soooo happy at a time, and shed a tears on next minutes.
i'm officialy guilty and become an itchy bitchy moody now

if your day goes dark, just wait for another sunrise
-Alditsa Dochi Sadega

xo, nara :)

Monday, August 24, 2009

stuck in reverse

my mom said that was the best for you when i said this was the best for me. i should have known if momma know best but i just... want to make a decision by myself. if i'm wrong, just let it be wrong so i could learn to stand myself up and fix it. from mistake, people grow, aren't they?
sometimes we have to choose between what we need and what we want. it could be in a such different way y knw, i hate to choose. because i cant choose. i always ask anyone to help me when making a decision. big decision, i mean. but then i realized that you cant count on anybode elseee. i have to learn trusting myself thou i still... doubt myself :|
well, my mom said that she wants me to get into UGM. all i wanna learn is just communication, and the best college of it was UI :) 2nd one was.. Atmajaya. i prefer to study at Atmajaya than UGM (in communication's case) but she doesnt allow me ;'''(
i would love to study at UNPAD than UGM (no offense, guys) :-)
we'll see then, could i make it? i have to :-)
xo, nara :)

based on our non-officially break-up :)

kalau kau bertanya padaku tentang apa yang kurasakan, mungkin kau takkan mendengar jawabanku
lidahku kelu
kau tergelak tak percaya
bagimu, bukankah aku selalu pintar dengan kata kata?
namun aku tak bergeming dalam kebisuanku
sekali lagi kau bertanya padaku sebenarnya apa mauku
aku memejamkan mata, mencoba memutuskan untuk memulai dari mana
namun kau memecahkan keheningan yang ku ciptakan dengan kegetiranmu
yang tidak pernah menolongmu
sekejap saja hatiku seperti terbakar, aku ingin berteriak lantang padamu
lihatlah dirimu sendiri, memang kau sempurna?
enak saja kau meminta cinta dengan memaksa
kau pikir kau siapa?
jika aku tidak membalasmu, lalu mengapa? apa urusanmu? ini hatiku, perasaanku
persetan bila hatimu ikut kelu, seperti lidahku yang membuat hatiku lelah berteriak
aku mengatur nafas dengan satu helaan panjang
lalu kau memutuskan untuk tinggal
tak bisakah, katamu, mendapatkan sedikit celah bahkan untuk mencoba?
aku tetap bertahan pada kebisuanku
namun matamu memaksaku menjawab
kamu tahu istilah open ending dalam film dokumenter? tanyaku retorik
open ending adalah dimana para pembuat film tidak menegaskan jawaban apapun, mereka membiarkan para penonton larut dalam pikiran mereka
kau terdiam,
itu jawaban terbaik yang aku punya, ujarku
aku pun beringsut pergi namun sempat tertahan oleh ucapanmu
siapapun dia, ujarmu, siapapun dia, nara, walau entah apa yang dia punya, dia adalah lelaki yang paling beruntung di dunia
dan kau pun pergi menutup pintu
ingin aku menyatakan dengan sinis bahwa, kau salah bung!
ketidak bisaanku mencintai adalah bukan karena aku telah terlanjur mencintai yang lain, bukan.
ketidak bisaanku mencintai justru karena hati ini terlalu kosong
dan rapuh jika terisi
lalu aku pun pergi ke arah sebalikmu

xo, nara :)

disorientasi, hukuman, dan menunggu mati

aku mencoba menggenggam horizon namun silau cahayanya membuatku merasakan disorientasi yang dalam
sekejap aku lupa akan eksistensi kehidupan.
ku.
sayup terdengar hembusan angin dan tetesan air
apa aku sudah mati?
atau hidup menghukumku dengan caranya sendiri?
aku tidak pernah mengenal kata sempurna
bahkan jika dalam matematika, kurva kita berjauhan
yang takkan bertemu di sebuah titik singgung dengan persamaan : surga
kucoba meraba namun untuk bergerak saja terasa sukar
andai saja antibodi itu bekerja tidak hanya pada saat tubuh termasuki virus asing, namun juga bekerja saat hati mulai kehilangan pegangan
aku tak bergerak
aku tak merasa
aku tak bersuara
aku tak menghela
namun aku tak mati
setidaknya belum

xo, nara :)

cinta-cintaan jaman SMP ;P

aku berusaha menipu waktu
mencoba bersikap seakan kita tak punya cerita
itu cukup mudah, karna aku mendadak bisu jika didekatmu
namun pikiranku dan perasaanku bekerja dengan sangat baik
seperti saat ini, aku semacam terhipnotis
oleh simpul senyummu yang tak bisa disamakan oleh apapun di dunia ini, tebak saja apa yang ada dalam pikiranku
bahkan untuk melihatmu saja oksigen terasa seperti hilang dari bumi, menyesakkan dan membunuh, ya, membunuh
kau adalah pembunuh nomer satu bagi duniaku
bayangkan, satu simpul senyum saja dapat membuatku berhenti bernafas selama 5 detik, bayangkan jika yang terjadi kamu memainkan senyum itu dengan nakal, mungkin asmaku sudah kambuh sekarang
dan, apakah kamu tahu bahwa suaramu tak jauh berbeda dari sejak kita suka saling menelfon dulu?
tetap dan semakin seksi
hanya dengan mendengarkan kamu tertawa, hanya dengan mendengarkan kamu berkomentar, hanya dengan mendengarkan kamu berceloteh, aku dapat lupa dimana aku berada
seakan hanyut dalam lamunan tanpa akhir yang membuai
dan, bagian favoritku, semburat coklat di matamu yang tak pernah padam
seakan tak pernah mati
aku bisa terpaku memandang mata itu sampai akhirnya.. bang! kita bertatapan
aku cuma bisa nyengir pasrah
ternyata, aku hanya menipu diriku sendiri

heyy my cuteee Peterpan, you still kept piece of my heart, arent you? :)

xo, nara :)

my desperate thought of being 3rd grade grrrrhhh

an arduous question
even an assiduous teenage should think it twice
its not just a colloquialism, its a bullet
strikes to my heart
i wish i was bulletproof, at least for this time
i could equivocate you all the time, hey i have a special knack on this
but dont pretend like you're the mourner one, i know you're not
your smirk explains everything to me
i try to find any repulsing answer but
negative
i dont have any
now, would you please stop your queasy smile?
i could read your mind even without that
'where do you want to bring your life at?'
'fuck. i dont know.'
xo, nara :)

its been.... such a long long time

hey bloggy, havent catch you for a while. ive been sooo busy wif this 3rd grade thingie. extra lessons, SSC, and stuffs. please wish me luck to get in HI or Komunikasi UI. amieeeeeeeeeeeeeen <33

anyway, i just become twitter-addict! follow me on www.twitter.com/narawr :D


xo, nara :)

Friday, June 12, 2009

quick updates 2

well my examination has done and now i'll face the remedial, PTB, TT, and at lasr : Pagelaran.
fyi : KIM BUM WAS ROXXXXX AND ABSOLUTELY CUTEST GUT EVEEEERR <33333333
xo, nara :)

Saturday, May 16, 2009

lovelife (or lofelive?) ;p

i want to know why you always have to be gone. you're not the one who get into my life at first, funny boy who text me 5 times if i dont reply his text just to make sure i'm okay. now you were just the boy, not my old-it-boy. are you walked out of my life? hell yeaah i'm okay wif that because i dont wanna get into relationship smooch at these times. but, what i feel, it just, too fast :( i still want to have you near me and beside me. i still want you to wake me up in the morning and be the one who stay with me until i fell asleep. i want to keep it that way but it looks like you got tired with me. hehehe =p
then, bye my mbatangmen ;) hihihi thanks smooch for accompany me in this couples of weeks. i heart you :)
xo, nara :)

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

terlalu emosi saat ngepost kalo pake english ntar akan jadi sangat kasar :p

kemaren saya baca wall to wall beberapa junior luar sma 1 tentang sma 1. rata2 wall to wall anak 2o11 ke anak 2o12. mereka bilang :
'ga daftar sma 1 kan?'
'gamau jadi geek!'
'aduh geek it terlalu sopan deh kata2nya haha'
'kaya apa coba ntar kalo masuk sma 1?'
'kamu bisa jadi alim tanpa dosa dan gatau cowok itu apa'
jujur yaaaa
saya kesel banget dengernya ihhh mereka itu bicara kaya ga ada anak sma 1 yang punya facebook atau kasarnya ANAK SMA 1 GA ADA YANG EKSIS KAYA MEREKA trus ngatangatain sma 1 seenaknya. grmbl. sebenernya sih cuek ya sama mereka mau ngmg apa (apalagi yg anak 2o11 itu dulu daftar tldn tapi ga keterima)
sebelnya paradigma itu kadang kadang kebawa sampai keprofesionalan sesuatu hal. kayak saat saya izza dan maman pergi ke kickfest o8, (fyi saya ga pake jilbab) ada mas mas yg ngmg 'wah sma 1 maenannya distro sekarang' what the heck banget ga sih please ya emang sma 1 beli baju harus di karita? zz trus pas saya ada workshop film bodyshop ada yang ngomong ke saya 'sma 1? beda ya sama paradigmanya selama ini ' haha saya cuman nyengir garing :E hmm terus ada lagi. sewaktu saya jadi insurgent army-nya the sigit, ada org blg ke saya 'sma 1 tau the sigit juga?' itu penghinaan. dan waktu saya pake seragam sma 1 rok pendek ke amplas (pinjem punya sola, rok saya robek parah hbs lmb tonti) dan atasan pake kaos biasa ada yg ngmg gini sama temennya 'minggu2 ngopo ik nganggo seragam?'
dan temannya menjawab 'mbuh seko rupa rupane ketoke cah bosa' WOH itu GA SOPAN YAA ! tapi saya bingung itu penghinaan apa pemujian or stuffs -.-
hmm yang bisa saya simpulkan adalah : yeah sma 1 mempunyai paradigma sekolah serius dan religius. saya fine fine aja (daripada punya paradigma sekolah ga bener yg cowo brengs*k yg cewe per*k? wuahaha) TAPI ITU BUKAN ALASAN UNTUK MENGUNDERESTIMATEKAN SMA 1 YA WAHAI KHALAYAK ! saya kemaren berantem sama temen saya alumni muh* yang ngata ngatain sma 1 tu hal non akademisnya lemah wo bosan hidup rupanya dia. Dont Judge A Book By Its Cover! Dont Judge A Girl From Her Jilbab! (curcol hahaha)
trus saya ketawa pas ada yg ngmg 'di sma 1 ndak ntar gapunya dosa' yo malah apik to? hanya orang idiot yang mau punya dosa mameeeen hahahahahahahahahah kesian udah cantik sexy kaya eksis pacarnya ganteng tapi sayang masuk neraka :p bukannya saya sok suci tapi ya saya bersyukur masuk sma 1. ada yang bisa membayangkan kalau saya masuk sekolah ehemehem? :p aih back to topic. hmm apa yang harus kita lakukan tentang paradigma ini? -.-
ohlala apakah kita harus diam saja namun kita bungkam mereka dengan prestasi prestasi kita?
tapi susah juga. apalagi soal sponsorship and stuffs. paradigmanya itu loh bikin mereka juga jadi males sama kita..
xo, nara :)

10 things

yesterday i read raditya dika's post about patronus charm. he write few things of his happy moments for, you know, if you want to make a patronus, beside you have to say the charm, you also have to remember all your happiest moments in your life. now i will try to write the happiest moment in my life
1. when i was winning english story telling championship all DIY at 4th grade of elementary school. it was my 1st personal championship and when my name were mentioned, i hugged my mom and i cried!
2. when i get 2nd rank on all 5th grade and 6th grade on elementary x)my mom and my dad was so happy ;)
3. when my father comes to jogja and we just sit somewhere with coffee and chit chat like a normal father-daughter would do :)
4. when i've got into 5jhs jogjakarta and my name was on the list of 'calon siswa akselerasi' my mom kissed me and hugged me in front of the table :D hahahahaha i miss that moment
5. when i'm hanging around with my mates just go somewhere to eat, to chat, and to talk from heart to heart. to scream our lungs out. to laugh until we cry.
6. when someone tell me that he loves me :)
7. when me and my letskilldiaz win the 1st thropy of movie competition :D oh my God that was the most unforgettable moment but.. -________________________-
8. when me and my marching squad win the 2nd thropy of PPI kota :D rain rain rain ;)
9. when i win the 1st thropy of english debate :D
10. when i see the audience of my theatre show stand up and give their applause and ovation then talk to me
'congratulation, director. you've done an amazing show. it was awesome.'
how about you? ;)
xo, nara :)

Friday, April 17, 2009

Sorry seems to be the hardest word

What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you're not there?

What I got to do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Always seems to me
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

What I do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad sad situation
And it's gotten more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Always seems to me
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

What do I got to do?
What do I got to do?
When sorry seems to be the hardest word,..

i love this song :) you know like when you caught in a problem. it will getting more and more absurd if you dont want to talk it over. haha i've been that way before (now, exactly) but it was over. i'm a kind of people who loved to talk what i feels inside WHEN someone ask for me. it will be better if the opposite madness who talk to me. i loved to set things straight as soon as possible and i'm not the type of girl who talk here-there-everywhere about her problems and ask people to 'vote' her ew it will set things moreeeeeeeeeeeeeee absurd! but there was a people who do that. in what i see, there are some reasons why people do that. because they were not believe in herself and if they were wrong so they talked shit to people to dropped their actually-innocence-enemy. wuhu die you bitch! :p

xo, nara :)

Stuck in The Moment That Was Not Mean to Last

look outside, it's cloudy now
half-way to raindrops, shall we use this raincoat?
or just wait until the rain finally drops?
i hear the voices of thunder, as the soundtrack of the storm
shall we take this blanket?
or just wait until we get cold?
i've learned to play on the safe side
but you ask me for another taste
some other half maybe fully rejected
but for you, i think it twice,
third, if it a must
aint no other way, aint no other things to do
thou i know that it was just a game
and nothings serious with this
like a drama or a movie, but why should i care?
it could defined as stuck in a moment that wasnt mean to last.

xo, nara :)

For one of my best.

When it all happens to an end, why God make this so hard?
I’ve said that this shit's not worthed to ruined our time
Should I scream it just to make it clear?
Well I’ll wait until you listen every word I have to say
How long could it be?
But if from deep down you have no interest to set things straight, why should I?
I do love you and I do care about you
For you I would bleed myself dry
But are we growing up or just growing down?
I shall to trust that it's only the matter of time
But my hope begins to fade
I prefer to be quiet one than have to make you cry
Can you get this? I love you sure but somehow I can’t stand on your act
But I don’t want to see you hurt, too.
Please please forgive me
But I was hurt too
You can say I’m dying now

xo, nara :)

Friday :O

I type this on Friday math class feat mr. Narlan. GOSH i hate Friday schedule! It was 6 hours lessons and three subjects. Each subject has 2 hours and three of them doesn’t make any sense. First, Religion with Mr. Syahrullah. I hate this one. I remembered one day that i sat on the corner of the class looking outside the window and he just argued at me saying
“what do you looking for outside?”
Happiness.
“not a thing sir ehehe”
“You are supposed to look at me and hear what i say! Now can you repeat what i have told you?”
What? You just talk to yourself.
“eeeer something about forgiveness?”
And then he kept talking shit yeaaaah and then he argued with nisqul who sat next to me. Believe it or not he talked less more like this
“do you can pray?”
OMFG if nisqul doesn’t wear a jilbab doesn’t mean that she can’t pray you moron! Finally he told us to sit at the front of the class. -____________________________________-
The second one is this Mr. Narlan’s math class. He’s not that cruel at this 2nd years and as long as he doesn’t bother me i think we were good enough ;p
The third one is Mt. Heri’s physic class. Ewww he used to teach at the last hours but i just don’t like this guy. I remembered one day when one of his sheet was gone and he kept mad at class. Few minutes along Izza told him that the sheet was in Izza’s bag. It was .. ketlingsut ;p and guess what? He mad at izza and called him a thief and an liar person. Izza should ask for Headmaster sign if we all want to go home. What a jerk =3=
Yeah i really hate Friday. I want to go home noooooooooooooooooow please let me go hooooooooooooomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :O ahahahahaha ew i’ve got stomachace ;(

xo, nara :)

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Dreams

Last afternoon i fell asleep at my car when i was on the way to went back home. I had some dream. I guess this one have to be written here.
So i was sat in front of the dkz (5 JHS) waited for my mom. It was a quiet afternoon, i don’t know why i just alone (in fact, i rather die than have to be alone somewhere ;p) and suddenly he came and sit beside me. It was my old friend, alm. Brilianto Ahmad Fauzan or what we used to call uzan. He passed away when i was on my nine grade, just a couple of days before final exam. In my dreams he sat next to me and looked at me with his silly face and then we had some chat.
“ what with you nduk? “
“ nothing, just got some pain. Why? ”
“ haha nothing. Your face told me everything that you hide from me. Come on you are my friend since we were in elementary school. I’ve seen all your mood and how you face it. That makes me know at this time that you are dealing with some problems now. ”
“ haha i miss you then because i don’t get some boy friend that just like you. You know me from deep down inside and you also know how to help me dealing my problems with my love life hahahaha i miss you so mad ! ”
“ well i’m happy now, and i hope you all happy too, downthere. ”
And then i woke up. I was sweating thou the AC was on. I was speechless considered that he was already gone. Does he really comes after me or it was only absolute imagination? Maybe uzan can answer it by himself ;p hahahah JUST KIDDING! Masya Allah Astaghfirulloh ;p;p
I’m not crying, at all. I was so happy thou it sounds creepy.
I miss Uzan :(

xo, nara :)

Monday, March 30, 2009

absolute grey ;)

as the rain falls,
wash away all marks that you have left
good and bad, what's the different?
life is still rolling on a same pattern
and the earth still stand
keep listening 'things wont be the same without you'
sure, it wont be
but no one says that it will be absolute grey, no
as the rain falls,
i'm here waiting patiently
now its cold, now its dark
perhaps it will be a heavy storm
but in the end, there will be a rainbow
and the sweet fresh smell of wet grass
and the warmness of sunshine
and we will be flourescent back :)
xo, nara :)

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Quick Updates: TeladanYelling Team :D

while typing this, i see these Teladan's Yelling Team practice for next sunday :) eeeeew it was...... entertained gyahaha i cant find better word than that :0 so this was izza, maman, izan, khulqi, yoga, gusta, nanda, arda, ando, uma. yeaaaaaay it will be great(s) :))

xo, nara :)

Saturday, March 14, 2009

fashionsss

i love marc jacobss :D:D

just look at the shooes !! that was my favourite parts :D:D

he just make it good and it was match with indonesianese. right? :D

xo, nara :)

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

time goes by and here come the nightmare

Yeah, for a less than 3 months I’ll have my last year on my senior high school periodic time. This is my true nightmare yeaaaah because it means that:
1. I should pass the A-Level Cambridge Examination as a result from my international program endorsed by Cambridge these 2 years. Each of us should choose the subject like; English, math, physic, chemist, biology, and stuffs. Me? I will choose English for sure but sometimes I also think about choosing math too. But I’ll pay more concern to English because FYI, English have 2 sides. AS Level (which is we’ve learn this far) and A Level (we don t get into this lessons). I wanna take both of it, means I have to study the A Level or Literature by myself. Ergh ;( afraid? Sureeeeeee huhuhu my senior passed this. One of them takes 4 lessons. Physic, Chemist, Math, and Furthermore Math euuuw sucks. And he gets awesome scores. A-B-C-D for four of it. And there’s a lot of my senior didn’t pass the AS Level of English, only two peoples pass it. OMFG what will I be what will I be what the hell will I fucking be 
2. I should study oriented for my college too. For this, I really want to go to communication or international relationship. It all social so I should study social too for this years. At here, I was so upset I’m not moving on to social program for my second years in senior high school but past is past, now see the future and face it better than you did on your past. One thing that you’re dealing with your past is just what lessons that you could get. Actually I don’t give some interest to UGM, I prefer UI or UNAIR or UNS than UGM. Idk why I just wanna out from jogja. Got tired and bored being here but I don’t want to leave my friends. So they should come with me hahahaha what a selfish mind :b
3. ITS MY LAST YEARS OH GOSSHHHH I’ll leave NP <33333! This is the hardest point for me. Imagine that I’ll leave NP, there’s someone else take care of it aaargh how if they couldn’t take NP nicely? How if NP will dead end or else? How if my junior don’t care anymore with NP? If I could bring NP I swear I’ll do it :{
Lalala time still clicking and nightmare’s getting closer. I’m not sure I’m ready but somehow I’m sure I will get ready for it

Thursday, March 5, 2009

so little time so much to do ;p

its been a long time since i've updated this blog. since my laptop's missing (shitshitshit) i count on public internet place and for nowadays, i dont have a lot of time to go there.
like i said, this 2nd semester were HELL HECTIC -__________________- and for less than a month, i will have my middle examination and thats suck. i dont get too deep on this semester's lessons and what could be worse?
i type this on studio after i cleaned it with bunga, iza, and efel. GOSH DO YOU EVER SEE ANTS KINGDOM? come to me. i'll show you one of the best -.- guarantee. hahaha finally they fix the circuit. yeaay keep it up :D hope the fan will be fix, too ;p

lifes went pretty hard for me these weeks ;( i've got a lot of problems, jobs, and duty. somehow, i really wants to change this old daily lifes into something fresh. not just wake up, go to school, touching NP (soon: GVT and TT :9) researchment, went home, sleep.

err

when you fight with your beloved one, are you prefer to be quiet one? thou you are so damn mad to them, but when they speak their madness to you, you choose to be quiet and not defense yourself thou you know you was right. do you ever be on that position? do you ever feel tired to speak to them? do you ever prefer to keep your thought inside the box and throw it away? because you know that whatever it takes, no matter if you were right or not, they just dont want to be blame on. you exactly know about it. have you ever be this way? because i do. i really fuckin do and i got tired being like this. ;(;(;(

xo, nara :)

unimportant

on a miles miles away from here
theres someone who lived in the past
he used to control my life, my mood, my strength
he used to make me feels good when i'm down
he used to protect me and make me feel safe
he used to get my feet back on the ground
he used to sing me a love song
and he used to love me like i do for him
when he went off few years ago from me, my life were off, too
figured out that aint no other people can hug me as warm as yours
aint no other people can treat me like you do
aint no other people can love me as beautiful as you do
because for me, aint no other man but you

but 2 years has make me grow enough to realize that i can switch my life from off since he went off to on if i want it to be on
i've figured out that no one can back me up except myself
i learn that theres a huge world out my emptiness and i've learn how to fix myself, i've learn how to stand still, i've learn how to survive
thru it all, for him, i just wanna say thanks thanks thanks a lot for making my fifth semester on my junior high being awesome and i'm pretty sure that i've got over you! :)
xo, nara :)

Thursday, January 22, 2009

grabbed from http://dhoto.wordpress.com/2009/01/20/kalau-kamu-besar-nanti-surat-buat-nara-putriku/

when 'm browsing at google searching my nick (nara) i found this kind of letter hihi


Nara putriku,
Siapa tau papa mati cepet, mudah mudahan facebook ini masih ada sampai kamu dewasa.
Kalau kamu besar nanti,
Banyak membaca ya, tapi jangan lupa menulis juga.
Semakin banyak kamu membaca, semakin banyak pengetahuan yang masuk dan berguna
Dan dengan menuliskannya, orang akan tau siapa kamu
Maka keberadaan kamu akan terasa dan diperlukan
Kalau kamu besar nanti,
Banyak mendengar ya, tapi juga jangan lupa berbicara
Banyak mendengar membuat kamu bisa mengerti masalah.
Masalah apapun itu.
Percaya nggak,
bahwa dalam menghadapi masalah, jarang ada orang yang mampu ‘benar benar mengerti apa masalahnya’.
Sebabnya adalah karena mereka lebih suka bicara daripada mendengar.
Padahal dengan mengerti masalah, artinya kita sudah menyelesaikan masalah itu setengahnya.
Tapi juga jangan lupa untuk berbicara.
Karena disitu kamu bisa dimengerti dan dikenal oleh orang lain
Kalau kamu besar nanti,
Kamu gak boleh berhenti belajar sampai kapanpun.
Tapi juga jangan lupa berteman dan bergaul
Mencari ilmu itu tidak akan pernah selesai.
Jangan pernah mikir bahwa belajar itu hanya di sekolah.
Itu Salah banget!.
Belajar dimanapun, dari siapapun, termasuk pengemis dan tukang becak.
Selalu ada yang bisa pelajaran yang bisa diambil. Itu pasti!
Tapi juga jangan lupa bergaul.
kamu boleh dugem atau senang senang kemanapun, selama kamu bisa jaga diri.
Karena banyak kok dalam hidup kamu kelak, kamu akan bergantung kepada teman teman kamu juga.
Some of them will stay for you, selama kamu juga setia sama mereka sebagai teman.
Kalau kamu besar nanti
Jangan cepat percaya laki laki ya,
tapi juga jangan cepat menuduh
Emang dasarnya laki laki itu katanya brengsek dan penipu,
tapi sekali mengerti apa yg mereka mau, maka kehidupan dia ada di dalam genggaman kamu.
Jangan memberikan hati kamu.
Tapi raihlah hatinya.
Genggam.
Genggamnya jangan terlalu longgar, nanti lepas lagi.
Tapi juga jangan terlalu keras karena nanti hatinya akan mati.
Kalau kamu besar nanti,
Kamu harus punya semangat dan ambisi.
Tapi juga harus bisa menerima kekalahan.
Semangat dan ambisi bikin kamu punya tujuan hidup yang jelas.
Selalu harus punya rencana, tahu target dalam hidup dan bekerja mewujudkan rencana itu.
Tapi juga belajar untuk bisa menerima kekalahan.
Karena kadang hal itu justru yang lebih bikin kita merasa jadi manusia.
Kalau kamu besar nanti,
Kamu harus punya harga diri , integritas dan sikap.
Tapi jangan jadi menyendiri
Harga diri lah yang akan membuat kamu bisa menghargai diri sendiri
Integritas lah yang akan membuat kamu bisa dihargai orang lain
dan kalau kamu punya sikap, maka kamu tidak mudah terbawa oleh orang lain.
Tapi bukan berarti kamu harus menyendiri, karena kamu akan jadi orang yang kesepian
Kalau kamu besar nanti,
Banyak-banyak mikir pakai logika ya.
Tapi juga jangan lupakan kalau kamu bisa mikir pakai perasaan.
Logika tidak menipu dan membuat semua hal menjadi logis.
Logika jujur apa adanya dan membuat kamu bisa memandang masalah dengan jelas.
Logika itu berpikir dengan otak kiri, yang membuat kamu bisa mengerti dan menjaga diri.
Tapi juga jangan lupa, walau logika membuat semuanya menjadi benar, tapi perasaanlah yang membuat sesuatu menjadi indah.
Nara putriku
Maafin papa ya. But I promise I will always do anything to make you happy. Always.

hahahahaha :D:D:D



xo, nara :)

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

stuffs

late updating blog. i've knowed lately that blogspot is not having a mobile version like multiply grrrrr yeah no such thing. hell yeaaah i'm on my fourth semester now and it sucks, guys. why? let me tell you from my holidays at pangandaran.

oke. pangandaran starts from late-coming train grrr but is no matter, i have two things i lay on. my amazing groups, and him. shit it makes me remember that unnecessary stuffs and I HATE IT SO. why? because now i'm not with him anymore. let just forget about it.
well, pangandaran was awesome! you must check that white sand beach and snorkeling at it. aand you have to eat their seafood (i went there, twice :p) and trying tandem, surfing etc etc :D rawr i want to go there again :(

entering this SHS again started with full training of marching squad and making sponsorship's booklet and chase the deadline of pagelaran grrrr it's been a hectic time and thanks God i dont have enough time to think about him :D hahahaha


xo, nara :)

Saturday, January 3, 2009

holiday

holiday's almost done. only 8 days left, 3 if you think pangandaran's not a holiday. one thing that i've missed on these days was jakarta huhu its been a loooooooooooooong time since may 2oo7 i'm not going there. hell yea i miss that city ;( i miss the mall (sure) dimas and my others family. my friends also ask me kamu ga ke jakarta nar? and i'll answer nope, dont have time oh jeeze what a school i have :
at a times, people ask me what do i like from jakarta. uhm for me, live at jakarta may be hard but for a daughter like me (again, daughter) life was pretty easy haha you dont have to confused how will you go to somewhere because all part of jakarta has been touched by public transportation. the point is jakarta's more complete than jogja. idk why i cant reach them by words. so, i'll hope you understand.
i will go to semarang this afternoon for celebrate my father's birthday. my father is 40th tomorrow, wish him a long life :D and will be back on jan 5, preparing for pangandaran on jan 6, and then go to pangandaran jan 7 until jan 10. rest at jan 11, going back to school at jan 12 ooooooooh i hate this part!
my second semester on my eleven years will be great. i'll have exacta's stage, lcc's stages, casting for pagelaran, presenting my pagelaran and get ready for my usda job on january. will have CNT, TUC's stage, practice for pagelaran blabla on february and a lot of job few months along. my question is what about my academic's? and the answer (this far) was who's care? hahaha



xo, nara :)

hello :)

hai :) i am nara. young and useless senior high student at sma 1 yk (thats what they've called 'teladan' but whatever) i already have a blog, honestly i've had three blogs but i dont give a care about them. now, i try my best to keep writing on this space :) catch yea later :D